christineloves

2009-01-17T03:35:00.002+08:00

the best friend i've ever had

vanessa has left for perth alrd. i was crying like a dog cos it was really heart pain if i see her go. its like how she left the first time and now is the same feeling that happen 4 years ago. it was so upsetting. i cry for her and she cried for me. gosh.. she is really the best thing i can ever have.

one thing about me and her is that when she calls my name i alrd knew what she is gonna ask before she says anything. thats is how good i can read her. she knows everything and i know everything about her. she is someone whom i can never leave alone. but now that she is gone again the third time or the fourth time. well. its back to those lonely good old girl days i shall have without her by my side.

she is my all. she is like my younger sister that i dote on her the most and she dotes on me. when she left. my heart really aches hoping and asking myself why must this day come now? why must time past so quickly that we both have to share some sort of fate that she has to go back no matter what not thinking whether she will come back this yr or not supposingly that was what she told me that she will coming back in november. i mean yeah.. i dunno about anything now but i hope to see her soon. time will fly fast i know it will.

VL, i dunno if u are reading my blog or not. but here is what im gonna say. u really made me cry my hearts out. u are the only friend i truely truely truely trust the most cos we've known each other for so long and i cant tell anyone else what we share except u. everything the bad times the good times u know best and i know best. what is there that i can ask for from u? pls come back soon yeah. i really miss u dear. im so sorry for making u cry cos i cried. but sweetie i love u very much. rmb me always yeah. we both know that nothing can tear us apart. like i said before. no one is to question and asked us to choose. through thick and thin we'll stay. i love u darling. miss u

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I MISS VL SOO MUCH))):

2009-01-14T01:11:00.004+08:00

overdued pictures on sunday. drink at istana park and shopped for outfits.

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CUPPIE CUPPIE WA WA'S

2009-01-13T14:09:00.004+08:00

was at wisma venturing at daniel yam's gowns for sharmaines and vls prom night. after a while sharmaine came out with this beautiful wedding gown. lol. she told me to try it on for good reason. lol i tried it on and omg i have to say i look amazing. and i cant wait for the day i walked down the aisle with my hubby, koko lee. hee.happiest moment of my life.

ytd got back my results and they were like shit. i feel so ****** up. i was crying so badly and when i needed something. my brother also hadto just rubbed it in. gosh i feel so letdown to myself and to my parents. if i could turn back the clock i would want to become the good girl in school and study hard to have a decent result instead of something that says absent or very low average passes. thats what saddens me. im hurt. thankfully, amanda gave me a hug and she comforted me so did sharmaine and vl. i mean wow. when im at my lowest thats the kind of friends i can count on to comfort me. koko was worried about me cos he knows that i was really upset and all. he ended work halfway and accompanied me the whole night to love and hug me when im at deepest. thinking so much why why why why didnt i try harder? why? how i really regetted the day i didnt go back to school.

thank you dear for caring me and showing me such concern towards my life and u really have made me feel the luckiest girl on earth. there is nothing i can ask for truely except for your love and care u've showered on me. i love u so much and i really do. god has given me the most amazing thing on earth.

finally i just logged on to my msn. i had this message i dunno if its on purpose or accident but amanda sent me the sweetest thing i've never imagine.

sometimes when i hugged her i felt like hugging her so tightly to show how much she means to me.

omg when i read that i swear i cried. amanda u are really one in a million. u may not see that i dont care or anything but u are very precious to me and i love u very much for caring me. i known u long enough to see that u really showed concerned to me. im very thankful. i mean although we had conflicts before but those were the past now is future. i love you remember that always. u are very precious to me.

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IM GETTING ENGAGED((:

2009-01-10T01:05:00.002+08:00

i had a fantastic outing with vanessa. lol she is the bestest friend i'v ever had. she is my everything. i known her for 15 years alrd. we've been through alot of obstacles and our friendship will and can nv be torned apart by the opposites worlds; guys. yes. she is the closes thing i need. she's like my sister and my friend. through thick and thin we'll stay. cos i love her so. no what happens. i will always walk the mile with her even if take years or hours to suffer. its all worth for the precious friendship she and i shared.

town then 5 plus head back down to pasir ris. been a long time since i went back . had steamboat at her aunts place. and head back to town again meet the clique and jollin and gang. yeap. scarlet so missed me. haha.. home and eating..

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I LOVE VANESSA LIM SHI YII

2008-12-21T00:12:00.005+08:00

18 december 2008

thurs went over to sandra's chalet. it was also jaslyn's birthday too. both of them on the 21st. ton till fri morning and took cab with chris matthew sebast back home. cam-whored all the way(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLINGS((:

19 december 2008

came back from chalet. slept awhile. head to town to meet peiqi christabel eunice yao they all. played game of pool. did crazy things too. went home ard 10 plus. nothing to stay on till the late night so went back to do something useful instead.

20 december 2008

slept woke up ard 9 plus. meet up with mum and marcus to do shopping. dear came along. had harry's for lunch. bored. head to town to buy christmas gifts. finding marcus triaxswift watch everywhere. sian sian walk until so much lol. anyway was at centre point meet up with mum and marcus there finally he bought a watch. dear and i went to cathay to watch twilight. funny kinda draggy the movie was really. he slept for awhile lol. finally ard 7 head home.

loving u dear always always and forever. missing u is my greatest worry to begin with. everything falls back for you((:

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I NEED A LOVE SONG!!!

2008-12-17T19:49:00.004+08:00

im back in sgp. and i haven blogged for a really long time haha.. miss my darling so so much. finally got to see his face. few days since the day i came back been out meeting peiqi and jollin they all. new ppl i meet georgy and christabel weiron and the list goes on .

town for the past few days with them and took the last bus back home from town.. ahhh. tird seh.

ytd.. went to tanjong pagar@play. super bored cos there was nothing else to do there. slacked all the way. too crowded and cramped. bored bored bored the whole time. ard 2 plus i left for play with georgy cabbed home. now running errands..

jollin went to LA!! scarlet went to SHANGHAI!! will miss them yeah. haha. come back fast!!!!!((:

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2008-12-07T05:06:00.003+08:00

OMG.. i will be coming back on a monday morning!!! lol super excited. missed out on alot of things in singapore. need to catch really. i miss the clique.. close friends and best of all my DEAREST!! sigh.. what a trip to london. i will probably come back when i turn 20. that'll be a good time to go over. hehe its expensive over here. oh well have to save up more in order to travel back in london. nice views wonderful places to go but weather is too cold. ahaha. i'd still come back here. alright im leaving sunday morning 1055am in london. so sgp would be 255pm. reach sgp 745am. ahah. alright gotta go man

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I MISS SINGAPORE!!!!!(((:

2008-12-05T06:20:00.003+08:00

nothing much today. had a sight of london bridge the head to a italian cafeteria to eat lunch. walked and trained to canary whraf for sight seeing too. trained to bond street later look around. window shopping. went in to hamsley. worlds famous toy store. took a long walk and later went to queensway for chinese food at four seasons restaurant. very good food. excellent taste. finally home. long day today.

alright got to go. good night.

loving you is the best thing. missing you so much my love.

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2 MORE DAYS(((((:: YIPPEEE

2008-12-04T02:35:00.004+08:00

woke up in the morning then made a evening call to dear. miss him soo much esp his voice. cant help but to hear his voice. lol. he was at the sd office settling smth lol. called bad timing i guess. haha. but do i care?? not a lil bit. lol.

went to chinatown in london at leicester square. tim sum there. then walked ard the malls and bought a par of geox flats. super glam and classy. haha. after walking ard was super cold too. head down to convent garden too for the flea markets. and hot chocolate to warm ourselves and back home at kenly. long day oh well.. haha.

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IM COMING BK IN 4 DAYS TIME(((:

2008-12-03T09:16:00.004+08:00

im back for the time being now. my days was spent on a monday was a long day. woke up in the morning to prepare. head down to purley station then to london victoria. took a walk down to buckingham palace. nothing much there. kinda bored over at their parade. i thought we could go in to see the queen's palace but we were dismissed. not allowed in uk.

in the end. took the tube down to marylebone to see madam tusauuds wax museum. it was good there. took many pictures with the stars. (photos will be uploaded soon) if i knew where my brother put them. -.- kk after the museum, head down to queensway to buy roasted duck for dinner at four season's restaurant then all the way to bond street. shopping again. look around to see nice things. went in to selfrigde & co. checked out the branded goods and all. but, didnt see anything nice. anyways, walked along the streets and finally bought a black GAP top. headed back to purley.

dinner then bathe( some issues happen then will not go into detail abt it).

next morning, refusing to alot of things. being the unreasonable girl. made everyone upset. in the end, after much persuasion head down to central croydon for shopping. went alone cos i didnt want to be disturbed but alone to think about stuffs. come to do alot of thinking. finally ard 6 plus head bk home and slept cos i was tired over many upsetting things. but was resolved after dinner time which i skipped cos i was too upset to eat anything. heard my mum talking. i was feeling very home sicked and wanted to go home but i told myself that its not my holiday i should deserved but its my mums break. so i told her stay on if anything i can take a plane back on my own nt say i hv not done it before. so stayed on.

received 2 messages from dear. did not reply him cos phone no batt. could not be bothered with it cos was too upset that night. miss him soo soo much. sigh.. every night freaking crying cos im home sicked and this has nv happen to me before. im nearly gone almost for a month. cant deal with it. but just enjoy ba for my mum. she deserves this trip.

i love you my dearest. loving you is the best thing that has ever happen to me. i nv regretted the day i met you unfortunately haha. i hope u can be the best husband, best friend, best boyfriend to see me through everything cos i have loved you. liked u told me fat is not what matters, its my heart. and i love u for that.. i love you just the way u are to me. pls be by my side to stick with through everything. u are so precious to me. once again, i love you dear. blessing you.

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LOVING YOU IS'NT REGRETFUL

2008-12-01T06:09:00.004+08:00

woke up at 1015am today. mum rushed all of us cos we were gonna be late for service. service ended at 1215pm. took a half an hour drive down to bluewaters shopping mall. took a long day there for just a watch to look at things. bought some stuff there. finally bought my clark heels. thank u mum((: happy like dog. haha. around 5pm shop closes and head back home. whilst in the car, a have a message. thought was the mobile advertisements. but opened my sms its. from dear!!! omg super super elated. he smsed. told him its costly to send from sgp to overseas but he says and i quote.

dear: sorry dear my road show ends le.. but my laptop in trouble. cant open lor..

me: Dear! surprised u sms. super elated(= yeah i know yr road show is over alrd. lol its okay. just happy to know u are okay. get some rest. miss you so much.

dear: me too.. damn much ok. everynight must sleep when im super shag only

me: lol yeah wait till u get puffy eyes then u know ^^. wont it cost u alot to sms? if it does. save it. cos its expensive to sms overseas from sgp line.

dear: never mind.. its worth(:

and the message continues....

omg.. so touched can?? lol. these small lil things i feel so loved. seriously. haha miss him so so much. cant wait to see his cute adorable stupid face(((: love him loads.

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I LOVE YOU DARLING!!!!!

2008-12-01T05:46:00.006+08:00

these are overdued photos which occured during our tourists trip down to cadbury chocolate world located at bournville. during our travel by public transport. it took us almost 6 hours to reach our destination. its very far i must say. nv have i travelled this long down to somewhere where probably a bus tour could take us around 3 hours or alittle more to reach cadbury. we changed numbers of times aboard the train. that period of time the weather was super cold and i was freezing terribly. lol.

reached our destination. took a small tour ard the factory. not much. thereafter, we went into these little smal car ride named cadabra. small little cocoa beans showed their lil fun side. more of their standard of living really. mum made fun of me. cos the cocoa beans had houses. there was one bean in the bathtub bathing the other was playing with the shower. she joked that the bean in the bathtub was me. and the other bean playing in the shower with bubbles was dear. laugh my ass off. k after the tour, went for a lil shopping. bought real many stuffs. chocolates everything is chocolates. alright then head back home.

miss dear so dearly. sigh. sad sad sad.. freak..

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A TRAVEL DAY!!!! HAHA

2008-11-29T06:03:00.003+08:00

forgive and forget

im heartbroken

im hurt

cos the things you've

said makes my

heart burn.

why wont u understand

why wont u listen

is it hard to hope

these crying hearts feel

that pinch of love

forgive and forget

is the remedy to

everyones care

its pleasure to see the sad

bloom beautifully

like a butterfly cramped

in a cacoon

praying for that

glimpse of hope

to be free

however

im heartbroken

im hurt

but if you

forgave and forget

my pinch of hope

is finally felt.

i miss dear soo much. feeling so home sicked. im crying every freaking night. sigh dunno why.

goodnight everyone. peace out. cadbury day tomoro in london time.

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TO FORGIVE AND FORGET

2008-11-29T00:29:00.004+08:00

everything seems so drifted away now

it feels as though pain has taken

its chances to crush

our dearly pinful hearts

we werent meant to feel this way

maybe god punishes us for what jesus

tastes to pay the sins the

unthinkable beings caused

how miserable life could be

i pludged myself into deep waters

only to find myself raging over

the same caused that occured in my

previous life as a child

disappointment reminicense each hour

minutes to seconds

blessed it'd be those no pain

cos pain cant gained

remorseful it may seem

but thats life to begin with

never the word simplicity bends

the difficulty.

as i have said before

everything is drifted far

all's left is suffer for that split

moment

till that moment, we may eventually

live in peace.

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INSANE TALKS THE WORST

2008-11-26T01:05:00.000+08:00

it was an early morning when i woke up today. tired. feeling alittle frimsy here and there. had a meeting in the kitchen over me and my younger brother due to over undisputed circumstances. not very sightly i know but thats how everything is to be resolved and rationalised to suit everyone's comfort. after that 15 to 20 minute talk.. the chat of a happy aunt begans..

aunt nicole: shall we play mahjong?

me: im quite rusty at it so i'll pass.

aunt nicole: no no, i'll teach you, its fun. recopes yr memory.

me: huh, no seriously!!!

aunt nicole: come one, alittle game wont hurt. so just play

me: okay if u insist.

so i played mahjong and i was having fun cos in london not many people well not any caucasian i know off will play such a localised chinese game. so why not. when she opened the casing for the tiles. it was louis vuitton(LV) OMG.. so jealous can. i was so impressed. the moment i felt the tiles. i feel so recognised and rich!! LOL. whatever man in my dreams i suppose. mum had a good laugh during the game. marcus was thinking hard excrutiatingly whether he should put the tiles or not. well, mum was actually worse. haha. seems to me i picked up fast. lol. hehe.

around 1230pm went over to a small restaurant, little bay. inside was like a gypsy(think i spelled it correctly)deco. really impressive but at the same time i was aliitle turned off by the ghostly halloween music played to suit the lunch preferance. fetching i thought. haha. it was actually uncle brian's birthday. so we went there to celebrate. the food was good too. delicious. one chef's recommendation. beautiful tendered fresh skinned meat. fish. and starters was extravaggant. cant remember the names though but was good. especially the chocolate browny. yummy!!!

alright back home. doing nothing much. watching iron man froma rented dvd store. missing dear alot alot really. thinking hows he doing?? apparently im 6 thousand ++ km's away from him so not sure whats happening back home. but still. time is passing fast and i will be back in no time to see him soon. in 10 days time i hope. yep. alright good night everyone.

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BISCHESTER VILLAGE COMING UP!!!

2008-11-25T05:46:00.001+08:00

its been a long long day for me today. woke up 7am. changed into my warm outfits and walked out of the house. aunt nicole drove me marcus and mom down to east croydon station to train downed to victoria. we ran like mad dogs in the rain and it was freezing cold trying to find the golden tours to take us to the cathedral, stonehedge and roman bath. it was a long journey out of london really. anyway we found the place. bought hot chocolate and sandwich to munch on. we reached stonehedge first. was super super cold there. had to take pictures quickly. well, this is one of the worlds preserved heritage sites. part of the seven wonders. they said that when the sun sets or rises at a certain period of the time at the point of the stone. it goes in a certain angle so it seems. and the ancient ppl took alot of time trying to put the stone upright. its heavy. equals to one ton of people in one bus. so went to gift shop bought souvenirs back. then went over to the cathedral nearby to eat chicken stew. was alright but alittle bland. after lunch all the way down to the cathedral where god is worshipped. it took the romans 38 years to complete the whole building and its soo detailed the worked its so fined no wonder it took so long. the area there of words written in latin. alright now we head down to the roman bath. they said that the schools of thoughts build such an magnificent even math calculation to build steam into the bath. and says that these people came from another planet thats why they are so smart. we just took whats left of how they built them and improvised until now we will not understand how they built the bath so even with such complicated math calculation. freaky aye?? haha.. the roman bath water is the temperature of 46.5 degress. same temp as baby warm water. wonderfully beautiful the area. shopped around there for awhile and it was time to head back to victoria. it was about a two to three hour journey back then. super exhuasted and it was cold in london. sigh..

and i dearly dearly miss dear so much.. everyday thinking about him. alright good night everyone. enjoy the pictures. and i DID ALOT OF SHOPPING.

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HOT CHOCOLATE TIME!!

2008-11-24T02:22:00.000+08:00

here are the overdued photos whilst travelling and in knights bridge also where sorry saw wrongly HARVEY nichols and harrods are. i have not been doing much lately this few days. just stayed at home during those unpredictable cold weathers coming on and off as freely as it wishes.ate chinese food for the past few days. oh sat we went to tessco market. its like a supermarket only bigger and more variety. i swear i wish singapore's supermarkets can be as clean and as good as theirs in london. its fantastic. clean and proper. u'll love shopping there. lol. came back and rot the whole night. mum and aunt nicole and i talked the night about all women's thing. issues with our lives. it was a good talk. enjoyed but i was tired in the end.

woke up on a sunday morning. and woke up to found out in november it was SNOWING. omg. boy was i surprised. haha. alright after that went to church. apparently it was a no choice situation that i had to go but i was alright with it. since it was a holiday, i'll pludge with endurance. haha. met some really nice folks there. after the service, went over to tan ching restaurant. its a chinese small town in london. went over there to eat tim sum. and im surprised that the food they have here are actually comparable to those good ones in london. cos in the english county, the chinese food here is usually not as good as they are with the locals. but its really good. i was full. i could not eat. i had to finish them cos they said guests must always eat everything and whats left there cant be there but in the tunnel it goes. lol. after the tim sum, went to blockbusters. rent some dvds to watch. came back and slept like a logg. oh gosh!! im gonna grow fat at this rate. thanks to who?? we all know who we should thank. KOKO LEE!! my dearest dearest darling. miss him soo much. everyday is like thinking of him. but nothing else. im like on the streets i see those loveydovey couples cuddling each other ang hands tied knot together. i wished it was me and dear along there. its pleasure really. wherever am i, im thinking of alot of things where it has began with and when will it end cos i dont wan the ending soon but much more than what i wan most is to be everlasting. and IM A FAITHFUL. always will be. cos i love him and thats the fact. somehow, i get so afraid if we lose that connection that we have and the relationship might turn sour . its horrific to see something like this happen to me. truely do love you dear. wish u were here now. sigh. alright peeps time to go now. goodnight. love u sweetie.

oh yes. check out the chocolate wrappings and all the detailed designed at harrods. wonderoulsly extrodinary. wanna go there its all at victoria's street. catch a bus and u are on yr way to paradise where every brand and famous names engraved. u named them its all there. at knights bridge.((: peace out everyone.

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IMMA GONNA HV HOT CHOCOLATE(:

2008-11-22T22:54:00.000+08:00

this pictures are taken at harrods. its one big mall that looks like buckingham palace. owned and where the royal family purchases their items. all in one mall. u look at the place. u are so in loved with its detail desgined of every room. chocolates there are wonderful too. haha.. alright. nothing else to do. so i shall stop here. i miss my dear so muchh. sigh.. oh well. bye

ps: more photos to upload next round. peace out everyone

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THOSE DAYS WITH MUCH LOVE

2008-11-21T17:21:00.000+08:00

i woked up one morning thinking the person beside me brings joy to my life. as i see him, i feel at most secure when he smiles at me and kisses me on the cheek to show that he loves me and just as much love cant be measured when its something only one can feel how much.

i sound so much like a drama queen but i cant help it cos i miss my sweetheart sooo much. it kills not to see him for 3weeks. and moreover was talking to him online and webcam but i could not bear to leave the com cos i wan to see him more but house rules are house rules. im sure i will feel most elated to see him when i come back. i'll go nuts this round. lol.

my dear, love u so so so much. hard to see u go if u leave one day. u are the pieces that fills my broken heart when im sad but u always bring joy to my heart and make me smile and laugh the hardest when im at my deepest. i dont feel this is a unthumbless advice to say this. cos u know what they say?? LOVE DOES CRAZY THINGS.

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NIGHTS BREACH LATER>>WHOOTS

2008-11-21T00:31:00.000+08:00

london is what i call the land of cold cold cold.. lol. omg its like 455pm in the evening. and its dark like 8pm in singapore. landed in london ard 620am in the morning. it was a freaking 14 hour flight. my gosh but i got to watch some movies in the plane. and i took the A380. a pic taken how the tv looks like now. smooth. haha. auntie nicole came to pick us up and we headed to her place to settle down first. took pics of sights areas. ard 12 noon. went over to a mall to do some shopping. wow starts now and its working fast. okay then had chinese food. and i nv knew thar it taste just as good as it is in singapore. im starting to love london. lol.. oh man, i miss dear so so dearly much. wish he was beside me. okay then after shopping went to pick up james. my god brother brother.. haha from school and headed back home. eating lasagna later for dinner. sigh. alright shall wait for dear later if its my luck if not another day then. okay i gotta go now. goodbye darlings.=D

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I MISS MY DEAR SOO BAD):

2008-11-17T03:35:00.000+08:00

let the eyes do the looking and let the picture speak its day. im tired. goodnight everybody.

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IM IN PAIN!!!! SHUCKS):

2008-11-09T01:29:00.000+08:00

a long day at sentosa beach. suppose to meet joanna and her friend jovelle( i think i spelled it correct) at around 10am at sentosa. but dear could not wake up so in the end it was pushed to 11am but nevertheless, we were still late by 25 mins. cos dear and i walked from one end to the other. sigh.. finally reached to our destination. sat around the beach. got onto the water. jo didnt want to go into the water so in the end. dear pushed her in. and white shorts was wet. sad to say, cannot wear anymore till its dry. ard 130pm, dear left for training for his roadshow whilst me, jo and jovelle went on the start camwhoring at sentosa alittle but more. haha. it was fun though. then we slack till 5 plus. jo and jovelle went back first i went to chinatown to meet dear and both of us head down to clementi station to wait for my mum to pick us up for sushi. i was super super shagged and burned from the sun. after dinner, head back home. it was a long long day. dear and i crashed onto the bed and without a second thought, slept all the way!!! omg this way can turn fat lor!!!! sian...

okay okay sun. is a long day for me too. take care then.

today is a good day after all. and i love my DARLING SOOO much..... haha.. im glad u came!!!(:

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IT WILL ALWAYS BE BETTER THAN THE NEXT TIME(: