the best friend i've ever hadvanessa has left for perth alrd. i was crying like a dog cos it was really heart pain if i see her go. its like how she left the first time and now is the same feeling that happen 4 years ago. it was so upsetting. i cry for her and she cried for me. gosh.. she is really the best thing i can ever have.
one thing about me and her is that when she calls my name i alrd knew what she is gonna ask before she says anything. thats is how good i can read her. she knows everything and i know everything about her. she is someone whom i can never leave alone. but now that she is gone again the third time or the fourth time. well. its back to those lonely good old girl days i shall have without her by my side.
she is my all. she is like my younger sister that i dote on her the most and she dotes on me. when she left. my heart really aches hoping and asking myself why must this day come now? why must time past so quickly that we both have to share some sort of fate that she has to go back no matter what not thinking whether she will come back this yr or not supposingly that was what she told me that she will coming back in november. i mean yeah.. i dunno about anything now but i hope to see her soon. time will fly fast i know it will.
VL, i dunno if u are reading my blog or not. but here is what im gonna say. u really made me cry my hearts out. u are the only friend i truely truely truely trust the most cos we've known each other for so long and i cant tell anyone else what we share except u. everything the bad times the good times u know best and i know best. what is there that i can ask for from u? pls come back soon yeah. i really miss u dear. im so sorry for making u cry cos i cried. but sweetie i love u very much. rmb me always yeah. we both know that nothing can tear us apart. like i said before. no one is to question and asked us to choose. through thick and thin we'll stay. i love u darling. miss u
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I MISS VL SOO MUCH))):
was at wisma venturing at daniel yam's gowns for sharmaines and vls prom night. after a while sharmaine came out with this beautiful wedding gown. lol. she told me to try it on for good reason. lol i tried it on and omg i have to say i look amazing. and i cant wait for the day i walked down the aisle with my hubby, koko lee. hee.happiest moment of my life.
ytd got back my results and they were like shit. i feel so ****** up. i was crying so badly and when i needed something. my brother also hadto just rubbed it in. gosh i feel so letdown to myself and to my parents. if i could turn back the clock i would want to become the good girl in school and study hard to have a decent result instead of something that says absent or very low average passes. thats what saddens me. im hurt. thankfully, amanda gave me a hug and she comforted me so did sharmaine and vl. i mean wow. when im at my lowest thats the kind of friends i can count on to comfort me. koko was worried about me cos he knows that i was really upset and all. he ended work halfway and accompanied me the whole night to love and hug me when im at deepest. thinking so much why why why why didnt i try harder? why? how i really regetted the day i didnt go back to school.
thank you dear for caring me and showing me such concern towards my life and u really have made me feel the luckiest girl on earth. there is nothing i can ask for truely except for your love and care u've showered on me. i love u so much and i really do. god has given me the most amazing thing on earth.
finally i just logged on to my msn. i had this message i dunno if its on purpose or accident but amanda sent me the sweetest thing i've never imagine.
sometimes when i hugged her i felt like hugging her so tightly to show how much she means to me.
omg when i read that i swear i cried. amanda u are really one in a million. u may not see that i dont care or anything but u are very precious to me and i love u very much for caring me. i known u long enough to see that u really showed concerned to me. im very thankful. i mean although we had conflicts before but those were the past now is future. i love you remember that always. u are very precious to me.
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IM GETTING ENGAGED((:
i had a fantastic outing with vanessa. lol she is the bestest friend i'v ever had. she is my everything. i known her for 15 years alrd. we've been through alot of obstacles and our friendship will and can nv be torned apart by the opposites worlds; guys. yes. she is the closes thing i need. she's like my sister and my friend. through thick and thin we'll stay. cos i love her so. no what happens. i will always walk the mile with her even if take years or hours to suffer. its all worth for the precious friendship she and i shared.
town then 5 plus head back down to pasir ris. been a long time since i went back . had steamboat at her aunts place. and head back to town again meet the clique and jollin and gang. yeap. scarlet so missed me. haha.. home and eating..
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I LOVE VANESSA LIM SHI YII
